I'd like to start by saying thank you to all of the incredible support I have received over the past month. For those of you who have been wondering where I was, I took some time to myself and to my family after a terrible tragedy. It is something that is still hard for me to talk about and live with. It is hard to breath everyday and a chore to eat. Grief is not easy but it is something that we must work through. Writing is my heart on paper. It is my blood through ink. So today I turn on my computer again and learn to live.
Though I have been keeping to myself I have not been totally locked form written words. The loss of dear Beth has brought about a great many things in my life. It has shown that being the glue for the family is everyone's job. I have learnt that there is more to everyone then what they choose to show you. I have learnt that depression is an evil disease but that regret is just as consuming and all powerful.
In a time when my family is who I needed most it was also the hardest to turn to with one member missing. I have been thinking a lot about who my family makes me. I came to New York to escape. To find the person I have always wanted to be and the inspiration that will make me shine as the greatest writer. I left to come back home and have my eyes opened to the inspiration I have been living a part of for 21 years.
I have been burying myself in my healing and writing and hope to share with you all soon. This is all I can do for today. Until tomorrow.
Though I have been keeping to myself I have not been totally locked form written words. The loss of dear Beth has brought about a great many things in my life. It has shown that being the glue for the family is everyone's job. I have learnt that there is more to everyone then what they choose to show you. I have learnt that depression is an evil disease but that regret is just as consuming and all powerful.
In a time when my family is who I needed most it was also the hardest to turn to with one member missing. I have been thinking a lot about who my family makes me. I came to New York to escape. To find the person I have always wanted to be and the inspiration that will make me shine as the greatest writer. I left to come back home and have my eyes opened to the inspiration I have been living a part of for 21 years.
I have been burying myself in my healing and writing and hope to share with you all soon. This is all I can do for today. Until tomorrow.